I am resurrecting this blog for the simple reason that I have way too much shit on my mind and need to get it out. The last few months have been great but on the other hand they have not been without taking its toll on my nervous type of personality.
As always the story starts with a girl and most times it is the usual cut and dry kinda shit but this one is not so easy. You see this one in particular has been in my life for the greater part of 20 years and started out as being seen like family. Over the years I have definitely grown to know and love the woman she has become and as I write this now I am on the threshold of what could possibly be the greatest relationship I have ever known. For years I have always known she was the perfect mold of what I have always wanted in a person but in the past I was too shy to act on it, now times have changed and I putting forth the best effort I can possibly give just to be with her. It appears to be progressing and as of now we are on the verge of taking this wonderful leap forward together that in my heart I always knew that I wanted.
Having said those things you may wonder then where my nerves come into play, well I'll tell you.. I am not used to things going my way, quite frankly I am a nice guy and as the cliche goes I am always used to finishing last while at the same time managing to get stomped on completely. I can honestly say that so far the two of us have gotten on real well, no fights, no games played... nothing... all seems to be well. My only issue is that I fear I may jump the gun too quickly on her, she has been super receptive to all that I throw her path but I seem to always want more. I fully understand that if I just shut my mouth I will eventually be exactly where I want in life, with her, but due to ridiculously busy schedules and other complications in life we simply never have enough time for each other and once and a while it gets to me. I know there is really nothing wrong and honestly I can't complain, its just my insecurities talking. I guess I know I have something here that I wanted for so long and have to learn that I may finally be good enough for something that is great.
I wanna quickly rundown my story here to give you a better understanding of why this means so much to me.
We met 20 years ago because I was (and still am) best friends with her two older brothers. The brothers and I were inseparable and she became a permanent fixture in my life as well. Over the course of a few years I began to develop feelings for her but for one reason or another I buried them. She and I went separate ways but not a day in my life went by that I never thought about her. I regretted never telling her how I felt as well and that pain really sucked, I could not forgive myself for that. Then all of a sudden our paths began to cross again... contact was growing frequent and I realized that this torch I have carried for her for well over a decade was still burning brighter then ever. I was flooded with all these emotions so I decided to act. So far it seems to be going over well and I hope every day that she feels as happy as I do about this and decides to take this journey with me.
Our story is not yet complete, we have come 20 years to get to where we are now and I hope that we have many more then 20 left... there is so much I want to say to her, so much time lost that I know was my fault because I never acted earlier but here we are and here I am saying that I will never make that mistake again of not letting her not know what she has always meant to me.
I am sure there is going to be more to come, and if my gut is right, its all gonna be great...
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Rome
This weekend I just finished watching the second and final season of the HBO show Rome on dvd. All I can say is WOW, I was completely surprised at how blown away I was by it. The show is freaking amazing and I HIGHLY recommend it to anyone out there who is willing to listen.
The show foucsed on two fictional characters and placed them right in the middle of actual events... actually I was amazed at how spot on the show was with what was going on at the time... of course it is a show and things might have been altered a bit but still the real heart of Rome is present in this show.
Simply Stunning, check it out
When Icons Collide
When icons meet Brawls happen. Finally the great Solid Snake teams up with Nintendo icon Mario in the very fun Super Smash Brothers Brawl. Its a real treat for gamers to see these two heavyweights sharing the same stage together...The line up is so full of gaming royalty that even Sonic the Hedgehog joined the party too.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Army of Two
Playing this game now and I am surprised that I am enjoying it so damn much. I almost let this game go walking right on by but decided to give it a chance. I have to say that even though the game does have its flaws I am still having a blast with it and I am totally glad I picked it up.My only true issue with the game is its online play, its easy enough to invite a friend and blow shit up together but as soon as a match ends the game completely dumps the room out and sends all participants back to the games main menu. Now, I don't know much about you but when I am playing with my buddies I definitely plan on rumbling more than one round so the game leaves me no choice but to constantly invite people over and over and over again. I just would like to know what the fuck EA was thinking when they decided to make their servers run this way... good job assholes, nice way to fuck up an other wise fun game.
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